I have been away for way too long to even remember when I last posted on this blog. While I cannot make a list of all the changes that came my way, I can definitely sum it up as something that changed me as a person. At the same time someone told me, 'Welcome to life!' May be this is what growing up feels like.
We live planning for lots of good things but rarely do we plan for uncertainties in life. We never plan to meet someone special and falling in love, although we can plan for a wedding. We can plan for treatments and hospital visits but never can we plan to deal with life-threatening disease or even death of someone close to your heart. We can plan for what we want to do at the current job and build aspirations but not for changes which force you to change jobs. We make fun plans to hangout with all the friends in the city we live in but we are left unsure when end up moving to a new city with no friends. And moreover we never plan for emergency trips, in my case all the way to India or to Emergency Rooms to get surgeries at midnight! Life threw in all these and so many other uncertainties in 2013 for me. All I could do was keep faith and hope for better days!
Through all these ups and downs, I let a lot of things that are fond to my heart, drift away. It had been months since I held up my camera or my painting brushes and even longer since I blogged. I stopped practicing yoga and never attempted to workout. My plans for training for a half-marathon were in the trash and so were my intentions to eat healthy. I let my emotions take over. I lived in the moment. I kept breathing to just live each moment. I did what was needed to survive the storm. Now the storm has passed, I am grabbing myself up to pick everything where I left it. Maybe not everything. Maybe one thing at a time.
Everything that defined me and my life, slid away from the fore-front, and took a back-seat. It is never easy to pick up from where you leave. To re-start and gain the same momentum is impossible especially when life has changed its course. It has to be built over time with lots of thoughts, struggle and patience. There is lots to be said for all that happened in the past few months. Meanwhile I am picking up myself slowly and here's to a new start.